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I’m on Top of the World!

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I'm on Top of the World!

Actually, I’m really not on top of the world; however, I am ecstatic to share with you that I’m one of the top 15 women who lost the most weight for the Shape Up and Ship Out challenge! I weighed in last week and just received this email today! This came at a perfect time because I was in the middle of texting my friend about what topics I should blog about on my weight loss journey. This email will be a reminder for me to keep on doing what I’m doing and not to lose focus on my goal of wanting to win this cruise, and of course, to be healthier and happier!
I know I didn’t blog last week, but it was a crazy, busy week filled with a snow day, my trip to Memphis to watch Wicked with some of the greatest girls I know, and last but not least, celebrating my hubby’s birthday! Wow! I need to take a breather just from typing all that out! Even in the midst of unexpected surprises such as the snow day along with expected surprises like taking my husband on a picnic and watching a movie, I was able to squeeze in two Weight Watchers meetings by accident this week because I originally thought I wouldn’t be able to make it to my Saturday meeting, so I ended up just going in to weigh in on Friday. However, my schedule allowed me to attend my Saturday meeting which I’m extremely happy that I did. I lost almost 2 pounds last week which has been the most weight I’ve lost since I’ve started this journey about a month ago. To some people, that may not seem a lot, but for someone like me who has tried ALL the diets in the world from the grapefruit diet to the Atkins diet, this is huge because the last couple of years, I’ve not been able to lose any weight with any type of diets. I don’t like to say Weight Watchers is a diet because it really isn’t. I don’t ever feel deprived, and if I want a piece of cake, then I can have it as long as I plan for it and not get a GIGANTIC slice! Weight Watchers allows me to not only work on my outward appearance, but it also allows me to work on my inner self because it challenges me to take extra time to think about why exactly do I want to eat something junky whether it’s because I’m stressed or bored. Once I figure out the reason why I want to eat the deliciously, greasy potato chips, then I’m able to say no and choose something healthier to eat. Planning my meals out and packing my lunches have been a huge time saver for me! Even though it takes me a couple of hours to make the weekly dinners and lunches, it saves me so much time during the week because I don’t have to worry about it at all. It makes time management heavenly because I’m able to spend more time on things that I enjoy along with other things that I don’t really enjoy such as studying. ūüėČ But nonetheless, everything is all about give and take, so I guess I can’t complain too much! It’s been an amazing week, and I’m looking forward to many more to come in the future!

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My First Weight Loss Reward!

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My First Weight Loss Reward!

Hi guys! I know it seems like it’s been forever since I wrote my last post; however, I did not forget about you guys! I actually wanted to wait until today to blog because I got my very first weight loss reward! At my Weight Watchers meeting, if you attend four weeks straight, you get a key chain. This Saturday marked not only me attending all of my meetings for four straight weeks, but it also marks exactly one month since I’ve started my weight loss journey. It’s pretty crazy how FAST time goes! Between school, keeping up with the wifely chores, and doing this weight loss….it’s been crazy, fun, and challenging all at the same time! I’ve hit some minor roadblocks such as today because I ended up gaining a very small amount (.2 to be exact), so that kind of put a damper to things especially since I planned all my meals and measured everything I ate, but I tried to get the negative thoughts out of mind and started to refocus on my cute little key chain that I got. For those who know me, I absolutely love cute little knit knack things, and this key chain means a lot to me because it shows that I’ve consistently prioritized myself and made a point to go to my meetings religiously. Honestly, I love my meetings because every week I go, I’m forming relationships and a strong bond with the ladies that go there. It’s comforting to know that I’m not the only one struggling with this. This key chain is a huge reward for me because it makes me look back at this month to see what changes I’ve made such as planning out my weekly meals when I know I won’t have time at all during the week to cook or even pack my lunch. I’ve been consistently tracking everything I eat and measuring out my meals. Those two things alone are quite a challenge for me! I still have a lot of changes to make but that will take time. Even though I haven’t lost as much as I wanted to this month, I have to remind myself of the small lifestyle changes that I’m making that end up making a HUGE impact along with working on my thoughts and kicking out anything that is negative. I’m happy to report that my clothes are getting bigger, and that I’ve lost a total of 5 pounds this month. But what has been the most important thing is how I feel. I’m more energized and not tired at all. I’m slowly incorporating exercising such as Zumba which my friends and I still consistently do even though there are times when we just don’t feel like it; however, there’s always someone in our group that forces us to do it because it makes us feel better at the end. The huge amount of support I’ve been getting from everyone has been so overwhelming for me because it shows that everyone believes in me and knows I can do it. Here’s to one month and many more to come! Wish me luck on Monday because I’ll be doing my FIRST weigh in for the Shape Up and Ship Out challenge at my school!

Blubber Be Gone

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Life + Challenges=  New chapter.

The word challenges always brings mixed emotions to me. ¬†It’s that feeling of anxiety, excitement, and nervousness all rolled into one big emotional roller coaster, but I’m not one to ever shy away from a challenge especially when it comes during a time when I need a new challenge that will really test me emotionally, spiritually, and mentally. ¬†You maybe wondering what this challenge that I’m referring to, and please excuse me, if I’m a bit apprehensive to come out and say it because I’m not one to really share my personal demon for everyone to read. ¬†But I guess that’s what is so intriguing about blogs because I view it as a journal; however, the major difference is that people can read it which then helps me to be held accountable. ¬†Plus I find it very therapeutic to talk about my problems. ¬†So enough of me blubbering away…er….blabbing away. ¬†As the title refers, you may already know what this new challenge that has crept into my life unexpectedly.

So here’s what happened.¬† Few nights ago as I was watching one of my guilty pleasures aka Couples Therapy, I received an email from my college’s gym. ¬†When I opened the email, it only contained a link with a note saying Shape Up and Ship Out which me being like cat that’s is just curious about everything and anything, I immediately had to go to link to see what this trap, I mean link was. ¬†Following the link was a 12 week challenge to lose weight and get in shape. ¬†Winner gets a $500.00 gift certificate to put towards a cruise. ¬†One would think the word challenge was what intrigued me; however, it was the word CRUISE that got me really going on especially if it’s a free one since I’m all about free stuff….let’s be honest…who WOULDN’T be? ¬† I’m not one to fully think that this was mere coincidence because this challenge has come into my life at a time where I’ m about to start a new chapter in my life, but the one thing that has been holding me back from being fully proud of myself is my weight.¬† When I look at everything that I have in my life, I am completely and 100% happy with my wonderful marriage to an extremely loving and supportive husband, my family that truly believes in me and supports me, and my huge and tight group of friends that has been there through the hardest and weakest moments of my life.¬† However, the one thing that I can honestly say that makes me extremely unhappy is my weight.¬† I cringe when I hear the words, “Let’s take a picture!” because I know that I have to face looking at the image of myself, so I avoid taking pictures, and even when I have to, I try to bolt out of the room so I don’t have to face looking at what I have done to myself.¬† This new chapter that I am about to enter has been filled with accomplishments, and one of the biggest accomplishments is getting my bachelor’s degree in May.¬† Honestly, when I walk down that aisle to get my diploma, I want to be COMPLETELY¬†happy with my life including my weight because I would have accomplished everything I wanted, and I want to walk down that aisle and not be ashamed to take pictures because it is a moment in my life that I should be fully proud of including my weight.¬† You see my husband and I moved to Mississippi a couple of years ago, and during that time, I had lost about 50 lbs. ¬†Well, as one would know and understand, life tends to bring about a lot of changes and challenges. ¬†I found myself slowly gaining the weight and not ever getting control of it because I struggle with prioritizing myself.¬† Dealing with a new move away from my family, working for a short period of time before going to school full time, and the biggest challenge was dealing with the emotional scars that developed during my time in Florida added weight not just emotionally but also physically. ¬†But enough of the excuses, I know I am ultimately at fault for gaining the weight, and now that the awareness is there, I need to take it and make it a learning lesson.

My weight has always been the inner demon that has sabotaged my life and prohibited me from being completely happy with myself.¬† Throughout the day, I find myself constantly thinking about my weight or comparing myself to others.¬† Not only has it consumed my life, but it also has taken a lot of my happiness, and quite honestly, I can say that I have hit rock bottom.¬† Since I am pursuing my master’s degree in Clinical Mental Health Counseling, I believe it is extremely important for me to “practice what I preach”.¬† If I’m suppose to tell my future clients to take care of themselves by making sure they prioritize taking time for themselves and taking care of their health then I need to do the same.¬† I just can’t be the type of counselor that tells them these things but yet doesn’t even implement it in my own life.¬† That right there wouldn’t make me an effective counselor, and I can’t live life like that.¬† In order for me to be successful with this weight loss, I have decided to blog once a week about my progress and struggles along with posting pictures of my progress.¬† Below you will see pictures of the old me.¬† Pictures that I will embrace wholeheartedly and not look down negatively because I believe in order to be successful in this weight loss I to embrace the person I am now and take the steps to changing myself from the old me to the new and healthier me.¬† So weight loss journey….I EMBRACE you wholeheartedly and I’m ready to take on the NEW challenges for 2014!